I Hope You Love Me When I'm Broken

I hope you love me on the days
That getting out of bed is my biggest win. 
When I'm no longer witty or pretty,
I hope you love what's within.

When I let myself go, 
When I beg to burst out of my own skin, 
And carrying my own weight is a chore,
I hope you love me more. 

I hope you love me when you find out
That there's nothing to be fixed.

Because I am so tired 
Of trying to be, 
Something that isn't me. 

I have searched in so many chairs, 
And promises, 
Little pills
And big prayers. 

All l can do is hope. 
That is all I have to give. 
This is who I am. 
There's nothing I can fix. 

For beauty, empathy, kindness
The lies the world tells me I must be
To be worth your company 
Is only a tattered half. 

I hope you love me when I'm broken, 
I hope you love me when I'm in pain, 
I hope you love me when I'm in tears, 
I hope you love me when I'm howling. 

Dear Self, 
I'm done fighting. 
Please love me when I'm broken.

*Text and photography by Dani Hiro